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• • 10 SIMPLE RULES FOR DATING MY DAUGHTER

  • Originally posted by Vendayn
    

    Zorvan, very very nice posts.

     

    I'm going to favorite this thread, and re-read it until it gets stuck in my head...I'll take my own advice too of course in raising my child (when I have one), but your posts seem very insightful and would probably be how I would want to raise my child.

     

    Of course, I'll have to work on myself first...I have a horrible time making friends or even talking to people. I was always picked on when I went to school, mostly because I was really skinny and can't pronounce my Rs...I'm really quiet and shy most of the time. I am getting better though and talking more, but still pretty quiet. Don't mean to hi-jack your thread, but I figure maybe you would have some advice on that?

     

    
    Well, don't let the inablity to pronounce "r" get to you. I had the same problem when I was younger, took a little over a year of speech therapy.

    Now the skinny thing we're opposite, but same result. I've always had a "natural build". This is to say, that even without lifting weights my chest and arms give the appearance of having done so. When I do lift weights ( stopped when I was in my twenties, and it's hard to get the motivation to start again ) I get the results in a few weeks that take some others months.

    Now the problem with this when I was younger was that I was stockier and "meaner" looking than the other kids, but at the same time a pushover. When kids smaller than you figure out they can "punk" you, it's like a free-for-all, every kid wants his swing.

    And as I said earlier, once the floodgates were opened on my pent up anger everybody paid the price. No matter how many I took down ( or how many took me down, remember there's ALWAYS someone bigger and badder ) it wasn't enough. The anger, instead of burning off with use, grew exponentially.

    I found that those I demanded respect from weren't bowing to me out of respect, they were doing it out of fear. Because it became well known in the circles I ran in that I didn't care if I lived or died, as long as I took you with me. It scares people when they realize they can't hurt you worse than you've already hurt yourself. Everyone has a "survival instinct" that tells them when they're over their head and need to back off. Mine was broken, and everybody knew it. Everybody except for me.

    Like I said, even though I've learned to control and temper the physical violence, I still wrestle with the urge to make someone cry with just my words alone ( heh, some of my posts here may reflect that a little ). But I'm getting better with that, even. Unfortunately, it took the destruction of my marriage to get that one in order.

    When my daughter was born, I had a purpose in life suddenly. If I died, who the hell was gonna look after her? Some step-dad? Don't think so. I suddenly found myself analyzing situatons I'd get in with people. Would I walk away from this one, or would they take me out? Eventually, I stopped getting in the situations so I didn't have to think about it lol.

    Now, about the talking and meeting other people thing.

    For me, it's hard to do, even now. I still tend to look at other people as the enemy, someone waiting to get me when I'm not looking.  I've said it jokingly many times in these forums, but it really is true. I hate people. So making friends, as you can probably guess, is pretty damn hard for me.

    For instance, when working with a client or in any other professional setting, I can smile and laugh and joke with them all day long. Because it's all an act. They're not my friend, and I'm not theirs. But you have to do the song and dance for the sake of civilized tradition.

    But if I'm at a bar, I'm the guy sitting in the back with the table facing the front door with a view of all exits. A girl sending me a drink gets the unusual experience of having it sent back to her ( I did this one time with a really pretty woman, the shock on her face was priceless ), because I'd rather sit by myself than take a chance on looking like an ass by saying or doing the wrong thing.

    The only one person in the whole world that I am 100% comfortable with is my daughter. If she gets an "owie", I kiss it and put a band-aid on it. If she can't do something, I help her learn how. If she needs protecting, she only has to step behind me. To her, I'm Daddy. There is noone  bigger, badder, or better than me in her eyes. And that's enough for me.

    Well, now that we all know Zorvan is a raving nutcase, I think I'll just hit the "Post Message" button while I'm ahead.

  • Posted: 5/13/08 1:43 AM
    General Discussion
• • Darkfall tied at #14 with Duke Nukem Forever on PC Worlds' Top 15 Vaporware Products of All Time

  • Originally posted by killerxion
    

    when a pc magazine can show me proof that its actulyl vaporware then illbelive them until then i believe taso unles prooven other words. i would never believe some random person like you that has stooped this low.

    Has taso hurt you guys in some way? No he hasnt he already stated noone will spend a dime before they get to try it so ther shouldnt be any problyms why dont you just deal with the fact your wrong and go away already

    Funny, Tasos is just some random person unless you know him personally. So I don't see where he's to be believed any more than anyone else.

  • Posted: 5/13/08 12:18 AM
    Darkfall
• • Darkfall tied at #14 with Duke Nukem Forever on PC Worlds' Top 15 Vaporware Products of All Time

  • Originally posted by SignusM
    

    Originally posted by Zorvan
    

    www.pcworld.com/article/id,145351/article.html

     

    More and more of the major computer and gaming sites are taking shots at Darkfall. I wonder which site will be next? Maybe I should e-mail a copy to Tasos for a laugh.

    Actually, its the same site and the same article that got posted months ago. More and more? Try one, and I wouldn't call them major either. Most "major" gaming sites don't make unprofessional and uninformed assumptions about games in development. Darkfall has only been in development for about 5 years. Anyone else remember the vaporware trolls back in the Middle Earth Online days?

    And the excuse for the Warcry article?

  • Posted: 5/13/08 12:16 AM
    Darkfall
• • Doom 4 Is Coming

  • blogs.pcworld.com/staffblog/archives/006909.html

     

    According to a news blast on id Software's boards today, your Doom is nigh once again:

    "Production has begun on DOOM 4™, the next journey into the legendary DOOM universe. We are expanding our internal team and are currently hiring to work on this highly anticipated title."

    For those unfamiliar with the franchise (what rock have you been hiding under?), the series was among the first breakout hits to introduce the concept of a First Person Shooter game. Since then, it's been blamed for everything from corrupting youth to global warming. All right, I exaggerate a bit. (Just a little bit). Heck, we still use Doom 3 in some of our WorldBench graphics tests.

    What is the deal with Doom 4, though? Good question. No word on if it'll use the same graphics engine getting tuned for the upcoming post-apocolyptic shooter, RAGE. And who knows if it'll even see light of day in this decade?

    The only thing we can tell you right now is that if you don't mind the Texas heat, you can apply for a job at the Mesquite, Texas offices.

    We're waiting to hear back from spokespeople, so stay tuned for any new details that pop up.

     

  • Posted: 5/12/08 9:42 PM
    General Discussion
• • Darkfall tied at #14 with Duke Nukem Forever on PC Worlds' Top 15 Vaporware Products of All Time

  • Originally posted by killerxion
    

    we already know about it. there about as trustworthy as the truths on this site are ^.^

    so ye a zor nice try but please you can do better

    Hate to burst your bubble, but PC World has been around for a very long time, both the site and the magazine. Also, they are a mainstream computer information site, they do not generally cover computer games as a dedicated game site/magazine would. So for PC World to call out Darkfall as vaporware means not only are we gamers fed up with Aventurine, but their lackluster development strategies are now becoming known to the press in general.

  • Posted: 5/12/08 9:31 PM
    Darkfall