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sqwiggins  2/27/08 10:13:19 PM

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In the past months I've been finding it harder and harder to focus in school. Everytime I try to pay attention I think that none of this actually exists. It's nothing more then made up words or numbers. I'm having trouble reading books and living in my home. I wake up every morning and leave my house and if I look back I can only think that why should I live in this house, I don't deserve it, I've done nothing to be living here. I find it hard to socialize with anyone. I've slowly been moving my self away from my girlfriend of two years. I use to think of G-d as a person, I'm now thinking that G-d is earth. This has made it very hard for me to walk around my town. I can't tell if I've become numb or if I'm finally getting feeling. It seems to be like a depression, not that I am thinking about suicide, I don't mean it to be a terrible thing. This makes me feel very self centered because I say that these words don't exist, but I'm typing them right now and I am sorry for that.

Has anyone ever had thoughts like this?

If anyone could give me there thoughts on what is going on or what I should do even if you have never had something like this happen to you it would really help my out.

 

 
Adreal  2/27/08 10:38:23 PM

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Scripture is only as ambiguous as our ignorance of it allows it to be.

The Matrix has you.

 

Nah.  Seems like you're restless. Are you really 18? and Jewish? I actually have a reason for asking the first question, but the latter I'm just curious about... Hmmm... I would say that the idea of what God is made of is a bit confusing if he is made of anything. If you can't determine that, then you really can't determine what he is. At any rate, it does sound like you're starting to become lethargic, restless, and a bit depressive. Are you anemic? Do your hands or appendages acquire a purple tint to them? *pulls out his stethoscope*

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sqwiggins  2/27/08 10:44:22 PM

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I thank you for your quick responce brother. I am 18, but I am not Jewish. I just do not feel like I should write what I know so little about, it's such a mystery I don't feel right spelling it out.

 
Zorvan  2/27/08 10:49:14 PM

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Originally posted by sqwiggins

I thank you for your quick responce brother. I am 18, but I am not Jewish. I just do not feel like I should write what I know so little about, it's such a mystery I don't feel right spelling it out.

Why not? You could get a good job in the mainstream media. Or write Presidential speeches.

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Adreal  2/27/08 10:50:59 PM

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Scripture is only as ambiguous as our ignorance of it allows it to be.

Originally posted by Zorvan

 

Originally posted by sqwiggins

I thank you for your quick responce brother. I am 18, but I am not Jewish. I just do not feel like I should write what I know so little about, it's such a mystery I don't feel right spelling it out.

 

Why not? You could get a good job in the mainstream media. Or write Presidential speeches.

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sqwiggins  2/27/08 10:51:07 PM

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Thank you for putting that giant smile on my face brother.

 
modjoe86  2/28/08 12:58:58 AM

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Trying to put the sensual back in nonconsensual.

Originally posted by sqwiggins

Thank you for putting that giant smile on my face brother.

Is your name Hulk Hogan, brother?

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This is to inform you that I've already turned to clay."

sqwiggins  2/28/08 8:08:31 PM

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I get that a lot, brother. I just find it a nice thing to say brother and sister.