It's far, far away. Behind the moon, beyond the rain...I won’t have enough time for Camelot Unchained. Even if SWG, or DAOC, or even UO itself came out for the first time tomorrow I wouldn’t have time for them. As great as they were it wouldn’t be the same again. I’m not who I was back then and I never will be again. I’m not a kid living on $100 a week and somehow making it work because the only thing I spend money on is food, gas, and MMOs lol. “Go out? Why? To where? I travel the world in my MMO!” Now I’m spread thinner than Nutella and it shows. (that stuff (Nutella) is expensive, gotta make it last)
Life is full of choices which come with consequences. I’ve made several that leave me with little time for my favorite hobby. Days used to feel like years, now years feel like days! Suddenly you realize you lost yourself somewhere along the way and all you want to do is log into a quality MMO to get a few minutes of precious escape. I’m back exactly where I started all those years ago. MMOs were the escape that kept my head above water, kept my soul out of the darkness, and kept me treading toward the light. All I had was time, too much time that took far too long to pass, and then I found MMOs. Time started to fly, but only when I was logged in. Outside of my virtual kingdom time crawled. In games I was fearless and always seeked out the toughest challenges to test myself! On the battlefield I was death incarnate!
Time being the devil that it is started slowly creeping up on me. It doesn’t come at you like Tyson, that would be too merciful. Time lulls you in like Foreman on the comeback. It builds your confidence, gets you to drop your guard, then it makes you feel it’s power. What I failed to realize was once it starts it doesn’t stop. It just keeps on accelerating. As I’ve had less time to play I became more cautious, more calculated. I still liked challenges but I was careful about which ones I picked. On the battlefield I was dangerous but selective. A tactician of death!
Today I’m fractured. I cling to MMO hopes and promises and I desperately pay for air. Time is the one resource I seem to have the least of. Blink and you missed it. Months go by in a flash. Entire years are a blur. I barely have any time to play anything let alone an MMO! When I do I look for small progressive goals I can incrementally work toward. Ironically I’ve never been more vicious. With such little time I’m not looking for a challenge, I’m looking for a quick victory. I don’t want to spend my precious time dying, I need to maximize my minutes! That is what it’s all about, getting the most out of the limited play time I have but unfortunately my skills are rusty and I don’t have the time to grind it off. As selective and ruthless as I am I spend more time meeting death than serving it!
This isn’t a blog about pity, or sorrow, or even a declining gamer longing for his youth. This is a blog about perspective and adjusting your play style to fit your lifestyle. It’s about keeping your favorite escape from becoming another prison. It’s about us changing who we’ve become to fit our beloved MMOs, not changing our MMOs to fit us. The industry has been trying to make MMOs where everyone gets a trophy for the last 8 years. All we ended up with a bunch of easily accessible games that were ok and everything and great at nothing. Camelot Unchained is a game of choices and consequences that aims to be great at one thing. Due to the consequences of the lifestyle I enjoy living it’s a game I might not have enough time to be the best at, and I wouldn’t have chosen to back it if it was.
While my playstyle has always changed to work within my lifestyle there has always been one consistency. No matter how limited my MMO time was I’ve always found a way to have fun as long as I kept things in perspective and was willing to adapt.
“You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend.” Bruce Lee