Mid-June approaches and I find myself NOT playing Vanguard anymore. Although the game itself is quite good it just hasn't held my attention, and not even for roleplay. I didn't grow bored of the game in the traditional sense however. I just stopped playing as simple as that. I logged my character out with the full intention of returning the next day and haven't yet.
I don't think it has anything to do with the game itself either, but rather that I am seeking for something different. I can't say I wasted my money as I only paid the $14.95 standard fee for the game and the first month. I don't even feel guilty for abandoning it or the guild I had just joined. I suppose this is just my own personal way of saying, "no thanks." So with that I am once again gameless, or rather I am not properly situated in a new game yet.
I've been spending my time on Second Life though and as usual it is filled with drama. The drama comes from the things I participate in while playing Second Life-be it running a military or designing clothes or simply just hanging out with friends, there's always drama in good old SL. I find myself needing to leave SL again though as is my way. I tend to be involved with it for several weeks or even months then I just disappear. It makes things interesting, but every time I return it's like I'm starting over. I have to find old friends and explain why I left or flat out justify why I left. It's why I'm hesitant to leave this time since I've built up a lot of rep, made new friends, have a "job" to do and am in a position that if I do leave I will disappoint many people.
Such is the life of a Second Life player. The stress never ends when you use your time productively. Besides that however I have been dreaming of the day when I can finally play Darkfall. Yes I know what you're thinking, "Don't play DF, it's crap" or "OMG dood tats ghey". I can assure you that my reasons for joining are the same as anyone else's. I expect I will be ganked, harassed and made miserable for a time but it doesn't bother me. I always knew DF would be like that. So I sit here now and wait.
It's been months since Darkfall's launch and I am still without an account. I've run into the same problems as most other people and haven't been able to solve them. I am hopeful though that my vigilance will be rewarded soon. They do say good things come to people who wait and I believe it. When the day comes that I am running around within the world of Darkfall I do believe I shall be quite happy indeed, especially now more than ever. One of my favorite bloggers, Beau Turkey, has recently made the leap of faith into Darkfall and is seemingly enjoying it. I think that if he can enjoy it then so can I.
The waiting game does suck though, I will admit this freely. Most of my days are spent waiting on one thing or another. I'm used to it but then I'm also used to being let down too. I usually know when that will happen though and I am not feeling that way about Darkfall. I'm in a very positive mood about playing this game and am not at all worried about people flaming me or trolling my blog simply because I don't care for the opinions of such people. My choice is my own and I will have to live with it regardless of if it turns out to be a bad one. All I can really say at this point is that I'm definitely excited to jump in.
Roleplayer's Tip: Use your surroundings to your advantage. Every object in your midst can be a tool for good roleplay. This includes emotive objects (think smoking the pipe in LoTRO) and stationary objects alike.