The day in Istaria was relatively short once again.
Logged in and was soon one friendly Dragon asked some healer's help. I agreed to come as Shaman with some high level healing spells. We were to hunt one of the toughest monsters - Daknor. This evil resides near Spiritous swamps, surrounded by Blighted Kwellens (lvl.106-107).
I had to run alone since everyone was in place. All the road to my group was safe, no need to sprint/speed up. Finally, I saw my group members on the map...and two Kwellens. First idea was to outrun them, but they noticed me and began to attack, then I sprinted, trying to outrun, but ran into more Kwellens...few hits and I was dead.
One Dragon told he will resurrect me, but I left group and recalled. Instead of so much wanted xp I got death point only. Later I was asked to join fight again, but refused. In my eyes, Daknor became unkillable. I know players have killed this monster, but no longer I believe it is possible, at least by me.
Rest time I spent talking with Player S. and helping her a bit with some Arbotuses: she is questing again. I even got some xp killing lvl. 70 monsters. Later we went to Northern Deadlands for some quest, but Player S. went somewhere...and it took too long for me to wait. I also discusssed some strategy with one friendly Dragon. He was too optimistic about Daknor, thinking one Dragon (him) and healer (me) should be enough to kill that monster. Later I logged off.
Yes, I do have some problems with self-confidence, I should believe in myself, that I can do almost anything. Maybe one day I will. The fact is, I do not go to epic hunts anymore. If there is a big group, I gain no xp as Shaman.
Day was a bit short with little positive experience. But maybe this weekend will bring more growth and joy...