Its funny thing about being a fangurl or boi as the terms are. When I used to defend the game I liked playing I never thought I was so blinded by faith in the company that I attacked anyone who didnt. But I went back seen some of my old posts in forums especially the recent months before the inital let down Turbine put its customers threw and wonder why did I feel the need to champion so hard? Sure I got satisfaction out of the product but was really being so vehement with others debating anything they said negative against the company worth it?
Or was it my sub conscious mind fighting the boredom that was creeping up. The signing on to run the same content watching the guilds I was in shrink due to others being too bored to play? I guess I wanted to fight the good fight and prove I wasnt wasting my time with my gaming habits. I cant say I wont be one of those "rabid fans" again. Im a gamer and a geek pure and simple. I can say I wont go blindly into a game again and it will take awhile I think before I find another online game to call home. Many friends have been suggesting other mmo's think I may play the real life game for a little though. Enjoy what life has to offer. Ive taken breaks from gaming before after having my son taking care of his needs came before anything else and still does. Hes not as needing of me now but I can still spend more of the time I did gaming with him. Comraderie asside ive spent too much time on my rump in front of a pc and not enough time in the outdoors. Im hoping to change that and wish all my friends who are still "fighting the good fight" for the games they love to enjoy themselves.
more thoughts to come as I have them...scary I know :)