Brace yourself. It's another SWG is ending what will I do the sky is falling blog post. Except this one is not about the game ending - it's about the people that played the game. The crazy, lovable, laughfilled, smexy, kind, infuriating people that made my first MMO so astounding that I'm still looking for another game that will give me the same experience. And I'm not cursing SEO, or the game itself - rather I'm pissed as hades at the people that I played with.
You know they (yeah.. they.. those folks over there lounging around and laughing at me) say that you can never recreate your first heroin high. Or your first drug of choice high - you pick. I think it's the same with MMO's - you truly can't go home again and the first MMO you play impacts every game after. I started SWG and spent the first 3 months playing solo. I had no idea what chat was let alone how to use it and I actually hid when I saw other players near a quest area I was working in. Stop laughing. When I did finally make it to Kashyyk and teamed up with a charming Jedi to rob some ruins, I was amazed at how much more fun it was.
So I started grouping with people. And joined a guild (RIP Ghost) and then created a guild and then joined alliances and then of all things got into massive RP scenarious where we were literally creating week long Jedi trials for folks. Crazy amounts of fun and endless escapades of groups and parties and player built festivals. I made friends, I made enemies, there was drama and reconciliation and through it all there were people that I considered great friends.
They're all gone now. They shut down the server (RIP Tempest) but they were mostly gone long before that. And in all this time since I've not found them in any other games. Nor have I found folks like them - it's as if they disappeared from this galaxy when that galaxy ended.
Where did you go? Out of the core 10 people that used to meet to mess with HK or save the Tat civilians from the Tuskens - I've kept in touch with one and though we both play LOTRO we've yet to meet ingame. And why is it that I've yet to find their equal in any other game? Surely there are other kind, nutty, people out there playing MMO's - why am I not finding them?
I'm forced to come to the conclusion that it's me. I'm not the same traveler that left the station and whatever kind of player I am now is not a type that draws the good, charming, creative people that I loved playing with in SWG. So I guess I should be pissed at myself rather than them. I just wish I could /hug some of them again, /slap others fondly - erase the memories of some and spend time making new memories with others. I miss them and as SWG ends there goes any chance I have of ever experiencing the joy and connection I had with them ever again.
I'm raising a glass to the Tempest server. I'm screenshotting my houses, and bringing my toons to the Jedi Shrine that I used to visit with K. On December 15th I'll log them out there and fondly wish everyone well that was such a part of my SWG experience.
And then I'll try and be a better person ingame. I'll try and be kinder, laugh more, be more creative, be more courageous. I'll do my best to be half the person that my friends on Tempest were.