The word gets used a lot in MMO chat. A lot lot lot lot. I don't know where it started but for me it shows up in every MMO I play and have played. Usually some teenage guy uses it trying to be l33t. "Dude he totally raped you!" or my personal jaw dropping favorite "I raped that orc - did you see that? Watch! I'll do it again!"
I hate it. I can't help but flash onto every public service message for women's shelters I've ever seen or trip sideways into poor Jodie Foster and that stupid bar.
I'm aware that I'm the only one that reacts this way and that everyone else ingame is fine with the word. I'm not sure if it's cause I'm female or cause I've got very little involvement in the whole tough persona in an MMO thing or maybe I'm just old. Yeah - I know rape also means to spoil or plunder (and some sorta grain) but a swarthy brigand stealing a bale of hay just does not come to mind when I hear it in Vent. What comes to mind is, "Dude if you'd ever been raped, or your sister or your mom or your daughter or your grandmother had... you'd never use that word."
I've never dealt with that. I don't have the excuse of a real life experience causing this reaction in me - rather I just have a recoil inside that does not understand why this word has become synonymous with killed fast in the world of games. And I can't change it. I can't undo whatever moment someone first used it and everyone else got that frisson of ooooh that's edgy and fun to use! and then that was it.
I don't wish the experience of rape on anyone just for the sake of them understanding the concept. I don't want to censor others and I understand that for everyone else it does not mean actual rape when they use it. Rather it means that they dominated, conquered, slammed the other person into the dirt so fast that they did not have a chance. The word that means violence and pain and lives shattered to me means woot! I iz uber! to the rest of the server and the word that brings up such a furrowed brow/pained expression for me brings up a triumphant howl of domination in others. It's just a word. But for me it seems that it crosses a line.
This morning I wondered about something. What if I used "castrated" every time I downed a mob quickly "Did you see that? I totally castrated him! Watch! I'll do it again!". Would all the guys in Vent go silent for a moment? Maybe my point might be made about having a twinge inside when a word that implies sexual violence is used to express winning.
Maybe not. Truth of the matter is I can't bring myself to use castrate either. Words have power - these blogs are proof of that - and for me, I can't cross that line. I'm the only one standing on this side of it, but I just can't cross that line.